Monday, 30 July 2012

I Am A FreeSpirit

Today I'm off to camp. FreeSpirit Community Summer Camp. I look forward to this each year. Time in community with what seems like the best family in the world. Brothers and sisters bringing laughter and talents, sharing opinions and wisdoms, giving love and time. I treasure this so much. Some of these friends I only seem to see here, once a year. Each year I make new ones. Each year I hang out in the perfect setting with old ones.

We dance, we sing, we tell stories, we drum, we talk wise words, we talk rubbish, we laugh, then we laugh some more, we cook on the fire and eat together, we learn, we open up, we are.

It's on a farm where there are woods with a stream, a lake and a jetty, sheep and donkeys that join in with the meditation sessions, bison that wander silhouetted on the hilltop at sundown, a little shop/cafe with home-made elderflower cordial, long walks in nature and a play place for the littlies.

This year we have our theme ... EarthHeart. We chose what felt right for 2012. With hearts opening and connecting more and the Earth Star chakra opening this year it had to be. We are having a tipi as our Heart Space and the energy spot in the woods as the Earth Space. I'm responsible for organising and setting up these spaces ... I can't wait, what a joy.

I can't wait to get my tent up and eat that first ad hoc meal with friends. I can't wait to chat fireside until the night is still and the embers small. I can't wait to wake up that first morning, amble barefooted across the grass to get my morning cuppa and exchange a loving nod with some other rumpled bedhead. I can't wait to dance and whoop and spin in the shadows, driven by the pounding drums. I can't wait for those moments of bliss and stillness that come in a place of peace. I can't wait for the hugs and the smiles that will surely envelope me. I can't wait to free my spirit just a little more.

The Dreadess xx





Saturday, 28 July 2012

An Olympic Effort For The Earth Star Chakra

Last night I watched with interest the opening ceremony of the 2012 Olympics in London. I'm not overly an Olympic fan or one who really watches sport ... but I do like being inspired by heroes young and old achieve dreams and show us the best that humanity can be and for me the sporting greats are heroes too.

This opening ceremony held more than this fascination for me though. I've been waiting for this event for some time in my role as a planetary light worker. I am just one of thousands and thousands and thousands around the globe who consciously intend the holding and raising of certain energies for humanity and our Earth. 2012 is the year of shifts and activation of the planetary Earth Star Chakra, amongst many other things. The Earth Star Chakra is situated in London. The intense energy of the games and the focus of that, on London, is helping process of activation and opening of the chakra. So for this opening ceremony, whilst enjoying the fabulous spectacle, I also held my vision and had lit a candle for the event.

Just as we each have an electro magnetic system, so to does our Earth complete with chakras. As above so below. The divine mirrors of macrocosm microcosm.

The site of the stadium is not a fortuitous accident, but has been guided from the inner planes, to be in the right place, just as was the choosing of London as the host. That guidance was also evident from some of the symbolism in the opening ceremony itself. Not least the presence of Glastonbury Tor, the isle of Avalon. I recognised it in an instant, the hill I've walked so many times and its very presence in that stadium boomed my heart and brought a tear to my eye. This morning I am still gobsmacked that they got it so right.

Glastonbury, a place, which since childhood, has been so dear to my heart, is the planetary Heart Chakra. This is a place, steeped in magickal history, which energetically is growing stronger and stronger as the loving transformation of humanity happens and more people open their own hearts.

The Earth Star Chakra needs to be aligned with the Heart Chakra and all the other chakras to fully function and to carry out its role of anchoring the Spirit to connect with both the Earth and Universal energies. The major function of the Earth Star is to secure the aura in the physical dimension and keep us and Earth grounded while we all manifest as light beings.

The more and more people that connect with their own personal piece of the Earth Star Chakra will raise the consciousness in humanity that the Earth is our home and our Mother, a place to be nurtured, loved and respected, not ripped apart and every ounce of life sucked out of her.

The more people that connect their Earth Star to their Heart will feel the love that Earth has for us and be able to send healing energy back to her. Our mother loves us unconditionally and it is a part of every human's purpose to remember and experience this connection.

The more people that become aware and live their lives with this intent, the more life on Earth will change for the better. We will be more respectful, more loving, more connected, healthier and happier.

Your Earth Star Chakra is about 30-60 cm below your feet. It is what keeps you and your energies anchored to the earth. It is a black 3-dimensional star. The energy is very powerful. It flows up to activate the other chakras because it all links together. Your Earth Star enables you to give and receive love from the earth. It is your key to remembering who you are and why you are here.

It was for this reason that I suggested EarthHeart as the theme of this years FreeSpirit Community Summer Camp. Its for this reason I'm building two spaces there, one for the Heart and one for the Earth. It's also for the same reason I will be leading a meditation, given to me partly by the Earth herself, to enable many people to connect with the Earth's energy system and their own Earth Star Chakras.

So for the rest of the Olympic Games I will not be able to watch many of the events. I will miss the displays of courage and strength because I will be in a field with the green grass under my bare feet and the blue sky overhead, but I will have in my mind that vision of a Glastonbury Tor aligned with a flaming ring of fire, Heart and Earth Star together in perfection. I will replay that fluttering image of all the flags of the world joined in peace and unity on the grassy slopes of the Earth's glowing heart. My heart will be gladdened by the fact that each country's team has at least one women in it for the first time in Olympic herstory. I will continue to be wowed by the flaming petals rising to create a cauldron of beauty and light. I will block out all the negativity about McDonald's food monopoly, the budget being better spent elsewhere, different views around patriotism and the security fiasco and I'm just gonna focus on the good. I'm going to look at the bigger picture and dance with love on the Earth and send my positivity to these Olympic Games.


Just one more thing to say really ... God and Goddess bless you Danny Boyle for your vision and all who worked so hard with you to make it happen. You gave us quirky, eccentric and humourous. Not least the Queen parachuting in and Mr Bean.

The Dreadess xx




Tuesday, 24 July 2012

Are You Yourself?

My Yogi tea bag tag says "Learn to be yourself".

I pondered, as I do all the little wordy wisdoms that come whilst dunking one of my favourite herbals.

Why do I have to learn to be myself ... aren't I me already? Surely I was born me, just as you were born you.

Yep ... I did start this life as myself, untainted, pure me. You know what though, I kind of know that I did unlearn how to be me. Not sure when it began, the unlearning. I suppose I was taught not to be me through various words fed me and different circumstances that restricted or coerced me. I was gradually moulded in to an un-me shape. The more and more I reached back in the depths of my memory the further I seemed to have to go to find a point were the real me was and the unlearning began. I know there was a more recent point when the return back to me began, but the beginning of unlearning was harder to establish.

So I guess we all have to learn to be ourselves. What is the raw essence of us? What drives us? What makes us happy? What brings us that joyful, childlike state of glee and wonder, because that for me is the way back. Nothing else cuts it. That is how I am learning to be myself again. I've been doing it for a while now and I'm more myself than I've ever been ... well since the bit where I can't remember ... some where in my distant very early childhood probably.

I watch my child growing ... I hope encourage him to be himself all the time through my words and my actions. He has a freedom to express and just be, like I never did growing up. I really hope I'm boosting his self belief to the max and giving him the strength to just do his thing and be who he is. No doubt there is a bit of unlearning in there too ... life I suppose is like that, learning to unlearn, and unlearning to learn. The key is having the confidence and self esteem to find yourself, having the courage to seek within, where you discover that you were all the time, waiting to be given voice and expression.

I think I'll tell him about the tea bag tag ... in case he has days where he feels the world does not want him to be who he is, or for those moments where he thinks he just doesn't know. I'll tell him that Rumi said "Respond to every call that excites your spirit". I'll tell him that whatever makes you truly happy, blissful, without question, not on a human level but at a soul level ... that's the way to learn how to be yourself.

The Dreadess xx

Sunday, 22 July 2012

Blessed Buddhafields And Mudditation

This time last week the rain had finally stopped and the sun peeked out. I was in the middle of a huge marquee, dancing in my wellies on a mud slop of a floor, in places it was supposedly carpeted, but who knew. It was Ecstatic Dance with Jewels Wingfield, the moving meditation EarthHeart. Was I ecstatic? Pretty much bubbling over with joy and love. That's what Buddhafields (or Muddhafields as it was better known by those of use who survived) does. It makes a smile appear on your face and then stay there for the entire duration of it's being. And by mud I mean parts of the site were just slurry up to your shins, that we waded carefully through on our way to Padma Pancakes for yummy things, The Green Angels and the like.

It isn't so much the wonderful spaces and all the workshops that do it, it's the people ... everyone is just so up for sharing and giving and being. The place is full of hugs and open hearts. That's why the Ecstatic Dance works even in the rain and the mud.

It's a shock to come back to the (un)real world ... driving home and hitting a traffic jam with all the argy bargy and drivers not letting you cross lanes. It made me really appreciate the space I'd been nurtured in for a week. A space I will carry inside me and share with all I meet.

After the ecstatic dance, I had yet more chai and a chat in the wonderful Buddhafield Cafe. Then it was off to pack away the two spaces I'd created for the event. I'd been privileged to build two shrines, one to the Sun and one to the Moon, honouring the divine masculine and divine feminine energies, up between the Women's Space with Jayne and the Men's Space with Richard.


Inside the Moon Shrine


Inside the Sun Shrine

By some miracle or by some wonderful force field, despite the, at times, near horizontal and relentless rain the interiors of both shrines, even though they were open to the elements without doors, remained bone dry and relatively mud free ... and considering the rug and ground sheet inside the Moon Shrine were white I think that's pretty impressive.

The candlelit double spiral linking the two shrines ... the forked stick in the middle representing the twin energies ... the endless beautiful dance of All and One


I left strips of coloured cloth in the shrines for people to add and tie their own thoughts and honourings. That, for me, was a special thing, to read them all and bring those home with me ... I'll keep those for the next time I put up those two spaces.

Nervously I'd also ran two workshops ... "The Goddess Gifts of the Menstrual/Moon Cycle" for the gals and "Demystifying the Feminine Cycles" for the guys. Both were really successful and well received ... phew.

Last year at the festival I had been like a huge sponge absorbing all I could for me to process later, doing about three to four workshops a day and dancing my socks off to bands at night. This time it was about endless cups of chai, mostly at Pachamama's with Bob and his pixies, and chatting and connecting with people. I did dance though, of course ... despite my foot and the endless mud. I enjoyed some Shamanic Dance with Zelia Pye and I loved the time I got to spend in her tipi, I had a bit of a knees up with Undercover Hippy and danced the Five Rhythms with Jo Hardy. Strangely ... I had loads of pain all over my foot on the Tuesday and was hobbling around worse than ever after I came back, then I woke up with a new foot on Wednesday and now my foot is now the best it's been since the fall back in February. I can bend it more, jump off it, balance better and the joint isn't sore any more. Thank you Muddhafields.

I sang my heart out and found a place of bliss with Mahasuka and his mantras. I laughed and nodded along with the awesomeness of wit and wisdom that is Paradox ... one legged existential poet, his words not mine. And I did so many other things, beautiful, wonderful things and met so many dear souls that I don't have the time or space to tell all.

I was most impressed this year, though, by my very own Myster C who managed off his own back, within the first three days, to get himself little jobs at Padma Pancakes, Buddhafield Cafe and Chai Chapel in exchange for food and drinks. Every time I tried to feed him when we met up, he said no thanks I've just eaten. Way to go boyo, very proud of you.

A huge thank you on my part to Buddhafield Café, whose breakfast, lunch and dinner menu and is amazing as are their smiles and dress(ing up) sense, the Recycling Team, whose job goes on for days after it's all over as they go through each bag of rubbish and sort it by hand, the Site Crew who just do so much to make it all happen, the Site Decor team, whose creativity make the place look pretty darn wonderful, Steward Crew, who went around with bubble wands, and last but by no means least the Toilet Wizards who kept those compost loos clean and topped up with piles of loo roll and Faith In Nature soap.

I will definitely be back next year come rain or shine to recharge my creative and spiritual batteries and to feel the warmth of humanity embrace me.

The Dreadess xx

A big thank you to Debbie at Pranamay for the pictures ... and the umbrella ... and the sleepover when my tent gave in!!

Sunday, 8 July 2012

Teach Me, Mother Earth

I found this the other day and as I really like it I thought I'd share.


Earth, Teach Me

Earth teach me quiet ~ as the grasses are still with new light.
Earth teach me suffering ~ as old stones suffer with memory.
Earth teach me humility ~ as blossoms are humble with beginning.
Earth teach me caring ~ as mothers nurture their young.
Earth teach me courage ~ as the tree that stands alone.
Earth teach me limitation ~ as the ant that crawls on the ground.
Earth teach me freedom ~ as the eagle that soars in the sky.
Earth teach me acceptance ~ as the leaves that die each fall.
Earth teach me renewal ~ as the seed that rises in the spring.
Earth teach me to forget myself ~ as melted snow forgets its life.
Earth teach me to remember kindness ~ as dry fields weep with rain.

~Ute Prayer


When Mother Earth quietly whispers her words of wisdom are we listening, treating each gentle utterance as a treasure ... or do we wait like a rebellious child until she rages, making us sit up and take notice. She teaches us good things. Good things for the soul, good things for the heart, good things for humanity. I'm listening ... I hope I'm learning.

The Dreadess xx

Saturday, 7 July 2012

Summer Moon Lodge

The Summer Moon Lodge last weekend was wonderful, even if I do say so myself. Certainly not me though, not buy a long shot. It was wonderful because I get to sit and share in a lovely circle of friendship and open hearted femininity. The women who turn up are amazing, all of us ordinary in our uniqueness, all friggin' awesome in our everydayness, all ready to offer our little bit of wonderfulness, our wisdom, our knowledge, our gifts, our talents, our art and our heart, to the whole and the magick just happens. The roundhouse, I have to say, is the perfect setting for such magick to happen. The sacred circle ... a doorway to spirit.


Here is what my dear friend Elaine, who made the yummiest biscuits for the evening, had to say about it on her fab blog.

I too am looking forward to the Autumn Moon Lodge ... playing with the Enchantress then we are ... lots of dancing and drumming in store. Fancy joining us ... we'd love to have you. Here's my web page for more info.

The Dreadess xx